Withdrawal is generally described as feeling worse and worse until hitting a plateau after which symptoms dissipate.
I don’t think I could physically be dependent on any of my bad habits but it seems plausible that my body adjusted to my sleep cycle and is having a very difficult time adjusting back to a more normal one, for example. What I’ve been facing in the last few days is the culmination of a week of discomfort in which though I went to bed at 11pm, I would either get up at 3am and be unable to sleep only to crash and want to pass out in bed at about 11am or if I slept all night it would not be a restful sleep. I’d still want to pass out at 11am. Clearly I have some issues to work out and part of it is that I’ve gotten myself used to sleeping strangely to the point that my body thinks a more normal sleep schedule is abhorrent and doesn’t want to follow it.
I’ve been having trouble eating well too. Though for about a week I was able to essentially force myself onto a normal eating schedule I can’t seem to keep it up.
Perhaps I’m just losing the discipline that I’m doing my best to develop? That’d be unfortunate. Regardless, since I’m aware that this is happening I should do everything I can to make sure I continue to work hard at my new commitments and hopefully it will get easier with time and practice.
I also hope that going home will provide some respite that will aid in my recuperation and reinvigoration.
As of late I’ve been trying my darndest to develop good habits and improve my discipline. This has been a Herculean task for me over the last four years and my failure to adhere to a good work ethic has nearly caused my mental and academic collapse multiple times.
I’ve come to realize though that part of the problem is my own nature – I’m forgetful! I forget almost anything and the trouble only compounds when I have a lot of things to remember. I’ve forgotten things as large as events I have to run to little things like e-mails I have to respond to… and they all add up to create catastrophe.
HOWEVER in my quest to reign it all in and deliver myself from stagnancy I have stumbled upon a system that works! And I’m going to share it with you, for a low low price of… just kidding. Here it is in one step:
1. Maintain a to-do list.
This entails writing down things to do, and making sure you look at it and cross things off.
Here’s the explanation: For everything you want to do, just write it down on the list. Don’t try to keep it all in your head. Write it down and make sure to look at the list. That’s where I always had trouble. I’d make a list but I’d forget to look at it. But remembering to look at a list is one thing versus remembering to do everything I need to do. Deciding to focus solely on that has improved my ability to actually get things done. On top of that as I’ve continued to keep up the habit of keeping a to-do list I’m actually remembering more things thanks to a combination of remembering to add things to the list and the actual process of adding to the list.
Furthermore, remembering the list helps build other habits because whenever there are things I want to do repetitively I just put it on the list every day. And with that habit those things become habits as well.
Funny, I think, but scarily efficient.
Here’s how I do it: I have a Motorola Droid (which I like to take pictures with when I notice something interesting, like this or this) and I downloaded Mobisle Notes, a free app that creates simple but effective To-Do lists. Since I have my phone with me most of the day, whenever I think of something I simply whip out my phone and add it! That way I don’t have to deal with the phenomenon where I think of something but then a two minutes later don’t remember what I thought of. And I get to be productive!